ADVAITA'S MUSINGS

Senses and elements Rumbling is the sea As waves touch and leave Gentle and balmy Furious and frothy Splashing and drenching Dipping and dripping Swathed in water and sand Sporadically tasting the water so salty Recollecting the burning sensation Of salt over wound. Scorching hot is the sun That lit a wildfire Lives searching for shelter So blistering it is That you start running Helter-skelter In search of shelter Mild and glaring Harsh and molten Pale and splendid Shining all the way till dusk. Hustling is the wind Ushering smells from elsewhere Familiar and strange Stinking and aromatic But taken away by the breeze. Chimes of the earth Created by solid, liquid, gas and plasma Standing flabbergasted to diverse sounds Faint and penetrating Clamorous and melodious Discordant and musical Dull and fading with distance. Starstruck by earth’s artistry The sky so blue View from the space above A sight so transfixing What an amalgamation of senses and elements…

Status The earth- so round, She shares her story, Nature, her pictures, We are her status, Which disappears after a while, The chain continues, Endless…

  My vehicle Things I see, Things I use, Things I feel, Now it is a part of me. Time spent, Time owned, Things have become family. Memories, Moments, Presence, Like a living being, You taught me, To be independent. Running on your wheels, Taking me to places, And to meet people. Travelling with you, Listening to deafening music, All were a part of life. Even the simplest of things, Bring the greatest smile on my face. Everything has its value, However trivial it may be. Gazing out through the glass Watching the sky Watching people, places Slowing down a bit When rain blurs vision Bearing my mood swings From happiness to disappointment And anger to peace You have seen it all Like a mute spectator. To my surprise Little did I realise How valuable you were to me When suddenly you vanished  Before my eyes And when your memories Hurt much more than your absence Things become so special So special than humans. It all happened Unknowingly… Which defines the value of fondness!!

Painting   Blue, yellow, red, Green, white, black, Brush strokes here and there, And everywhere. I am born. How lucky am I? How colourful am I? To be born out of imagination. The thoughts, The emotions, That coloured me down, The imagination that translated into me… How precious am I? To be a work of art… I am admired, By the beholder, He sees me through his imagination. The emotions and thoughts, Running through his head, ‘Tis another world of his… What a contrast of thoughts? From the creator’s world, To the beholder’s world. Still the beauty of it is, That I am a work of mind… A part of the creator, That transformed into me. I am always a sneak peek, Of the creator’s wide wild world, Tamed by strokes of colours, Born out of, The eternal universe of imagery…

  Amnesia I wake up one day, I have no memories, I forgot who I am. I see things, Move my eyes, Here and there, It’s just the same visual, With my eyes closed, I don’t understand them, It’s either light or darkness. I see people, I don’t recognise them. I hear sounds, People speak, But to me, They are just some sounds. People touch me, But I just know it’s a touch, As insignificant, As the air surrounding me. Do I think? I know not… I smile, I talk, I nod my head, My past memory came in flashes, And vanished within no time. Am I of any significance? The world seems alien to me. Or am I an alien to the world? Am I a blank page? Well… who am I?

The wall I have built a walled enclosure Around me I talk to these walls I stare at these walls In the grim light of darkness The nights so silent  And the days so cacophonous They remind me of Futile resilience, Cracks in my mind Wider than the hairline cracks  On the walls. Trust falls apart As humans without humaneness And perverted minds Like rule of the jungle Intoxicates me Can’t fathom anyone at all As some damages done Can never be undone Bruises heal But deep scars Are carried to the future Peeking above the walls And through its cracks, Reminding me The pain induced in the past. Beasts are everywhere on earth Thriving on hurt and pain Manipulative, dastardly  And emotionally frigid are they Agony reminds me Of the abyss I have fallen into Which never lets me Acquiesce to break the wall Even if pushed against it Once in a while I feel what I feel As it’s never late To do things That I should have done By now Laughing away the pain And smiling away the sadness All...

  Buzzing bee Solitary was my journey  Until I found my honey Love at once ‘twas The aroma so haunting And her beauty so hypnotising Flaunting her colours, so attractive That I buzz around with excitement Forcing me to show up Every day Enchanting was her sweetness Luring me everyday The sweetness, real and raw Moreish are they But, kissing her goodbye A parting so painful Off I flew one day Once she lost her glow Carrying her bits with me Like a lei on my pollen combs Searching for sweetness again Dropping her bits here and there Awaiting a new life mere My search for my honey continues In the posy of flowers As, unending are the hues Restless to share the happiness And sweetness so profuse.

Leaves Have been seeing you For quite some time Don’t know the exact time Born of the same tree Yet different in shape and age. Growing up together Having deep conversations Swaying in the breeze Nodding in unison In agreement to some conversation And sometimes swaying so arrhythmic Exchanging occasional blows Showing discontent For reasons unknown. Getting boozed after torrential rains Drenched so much, Some rain drops, like music And some like noise But enjoying every bit of it The ecstasy so lethargic Of happiness overdose A lull of calm sweeps in As the cold atmosphere sets in Nights so long Drowsing till dawn... The sun rays still A welcoming of homecoming Resuming daily chores Of unending duties Breathing and helping others breathe Growing old together Holding its pleasure Colour fades Energy recedes Crippling and eroding Waiting for the fall. Snap!! When leaves leave Dangling for a while Twisting, turning and swirling Descending, flying and swaying Finally reclining on the groun...

  True Colours I have a tale to tell Of beauty beyond looks Kindled to allure your heart You speak a thousand words Which heals a thousand wounds The gospel of truth opens Showing you the vast world Of compassion, sincerity and love Empathy encompasses the borders To touch the hearts of others There beckons you The beautiful heart That went unnoticed Once a throbbing one To mutatis mutandis Life still awaits you With all its colours  Let it brighten up the world Which awaits to be painted Like the ever colourful rainbow Embracing all its true colours

  Self love Whisper in my ears Look into my eyes Touch my hand Come near me I can hear you heart speak I can read your mind I can feel your emotions I can breathe you You are the spirit The unknown one My own reflection It’s me Conversing with the other me The narcissist me You, the better version Come, let us fall in love Let us build castles of dreams Let us ward off hatred Let us be empathetic Let us prioritise ourselves  Let us love our own selves

  Shifting times Time ticks with each wave, Change occurs with each ticking time, Earth changes its colours, And so do humans, The earth moves, The universe changes, Flowers bloom, flowers die, Trees grow, trees perish, Seasons come, seasons go, We laugh, we cry, We live, we die, Nothing stays forever, We meet to depart, To depart from people, To depart from things, To depart from the earth, And to part with time, Time, the caretaker of moments, Time, the usurper...

  Reality check When you just spread wings To fly in your imagination The reality steps in And you land crashing down onto the ground Seeing yourself in the mirror Numb, as it crumbles down Into pieces Staring at the empty wall Watching it in pieces Sublime conversations Turned the tables And acquaintances Tuned back the tables The same pattern Repeats Why spread the wings When there is no air to fly Why dream high When imagination falls dry Why keep expecting When there is no scope for a thing Stay grounded Let the earth accompany you Through all your footsteps

  Memory mutates Some moments in life, A dream like, That you never wish to wake up from, But never can you get hold of it, It just fades away, As your memory mutates...

  Unknown   I know no past, Who I was, What I was, The past before my birth, Void is my imagination. I know no future, Who I will be, What I will be, My future after death, Void is my imagination. But I know what I am, Now... I am the virtual reality...

  Unconditional love When love is unconditional You thrive even in negativity You live even when dying You are zestful in dullness  You find a way out in adversity You find peace in chaos You find solution to problems When you are valued without expectations Yes... Unconditional love heals you way beyond in all bleak conditions..

  Hope You taught me how to live, But you never taught me, How to live without you...

  Heart’s downpour ...and then there was this coverture, Which suddenly disappeared, That drenched me in the rain, My tears went unnoticed, Washed by the rain drops, My moans went unheard, Sunk in the hammering rain, My heart beats went racing against the falling rain drops, ...a deafening silence after the heavy down pour...