The wall

The wall


I have built a walled enclosure

Around me

I talk to these walls

I stare at these walls

In the grim light of darkness

The nights so silent 

And the days so cacophonous

They remind me of

Futile resilience,

Cracks in my mind

Wider than the hairline cracks 

On the walls.


Trust falls apart

As humans without humaneness

And perverted minds

Like rule of the jungle

Intoxicates me

Can’t fathom anyone at all

As some damages done

Can never be undone

Bruises heal

But deep scars

Are carried to the future

Peeking above the walls

And through its cracks,

Reminding me

The pain induced in the past.


Beasts are everywhere on earth

Thriving on hurt and pain

Manipulative, dastardly 

And emotionally frigid are they

Agony reminds me

Of the abyss I have fallen into

Which never lets me

Acquiesce to break the wall

Even if pushed against it

Once in a while

I feel what I feel

As it’s never late

To do things

That I should have done

By now

Laughing away the pain

And smiling away the sadness

All within the walls of my heart.


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